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I fell short...

Quitting smoking is the number one thing on my to-do list right now. I know that this is not going to be something that I'll be able to just say "Well, I quit.", this is going to be a long slow process, a marathon not a sprint. I bought some nicotine gum that doesn't really replace the feeling that I want from my cigarettes but it is replacing the nicotine. Maybe using that in conjunction with slowing down, decreasing the intake of nicotine from actually smoking, will help me stop altogether. This is something that I want to do. I've now posted this on two platforms, my podcast and now here. Now I have no excuse not to keep quitting smoking at the top of my list. Other than slipping today and going to get some cigarettes I've had a good day. I feel rather well. Before I had a cigarette I was so nervous and fidgety I ended up doing my neighbors laundry just to have something to do. I've learned, its all about keeping busy. The moment you stop you want a cigarette. That's why I just have to keep busy. If I'm doing something I can't smoke. I don't want to keep smoking. I'm so focused on quitting that in my podcast I didn't even mention daylight savings time. Oh well, there's another podcast out there that will. ...Anyway, I had breakfast and I took my medications. Its getting time to take them again. I woke up at 7 a.m. I've tried to keep myself busy all morning. i just eventually ran out of things to do. I hope you're having a good day. It was a blessing just to get up this morning. I've come a long time with out having a big seizure. I hope this continues. The last one I had was very small. I can handle the small ones. They don't take anywhere near as long to recover from. My roommate has to be out by the end of the month. I'm waiting to have to help him move. That's going to be hard, but its going to be the christian thing to do. As I sit here now, thinking, "What can I do other than smoke a cigarette?" I guess that just leaves washing the two spoons that are in the sink. (30 mins. later)...Well I just got through posting my podcast all over facebook and not two minutes later my post gets recognized and I start getting support from people I don't know. I really want to quit, this time is going to be hard though. Just keep me in your prayers. Thanks for stopping by. May the Lord bless you.

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